tragedy

There are two tragedies in life: one is to lose your heart's desire, the other is to gain it..

Yeah, losing your heart’s desire is tragic. But gaining your heart’s desire... It’s all you can hope for. This year, I wished for love. To immerse myself in someone else and to wake a heart long afraid to feel. My wish was granted. And if having that is tragic… then give me tragedy. Because, I wouldn’t give it back for the world.

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i'm not fragile because i’m a girl,
i’m fragile because i’m human.

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guerilla poetry: broken pieces

snapshots: pin-thin brain-free hotties

We can all blame the media. Always stretching the truth to a sugar coated lie. Morphing women into pin-thin brain-free hotties. Amazing how women's self esteem go down after seeing women on the magazine looking like a perfect mannequin. It's like a handbook that tells women to forge a new identity for the look that begs temptation. Can they not see that those women are fixed to be perfect? If you are grotesque you will never be accepted. You have to unleash your inner vixen and face your darkside so you can be ravaging. These tantalizing dreams can ruin a person. It's tedious to see people falling apart with no one to catch them. It's time to break out of the mould and be your own person and not a wannabe. For now, ugly is the new beautiful..

one day closer to you

Missing someone gets easier every day because even though it's one day further from the last time you saw each other, it's one day closer to the next time you will.

shapes and sizes

Regret comes in all shapes and sizes. Some are small like when we do a bad thing for a good reason. Some are bigger like when you let down a friend.

the dialogue

Jane and Irene are two different women who accidentally meet each other in the women’s bathroom. The time was about 6 in the evening on a Friday, and the washroom is located in the local mall. Now the mall is always packed on Friday nights, so you could just imagine what the bathrooms must be like. Now Jane is a large woman, but at the same time she’s claims to be a model. So she is very high maintenance and also is one of those undercover drug addicts and smokers. Jane is washing her hands in the bathroom and beside her comes a lady named Irene. Irene is a very pretty woman, but she’s a single mother and always has her daughter with her. Irene loves her daughter very much and would never let anything happen to her. The problem arises when Irene’s daughter accidentally touches Jane before she could wash her hands. Jane hates kids because they are so dirty and full of germs, and because Jane is so high maintenance, she gets angry...


Jane shrieks when she felt a little girls wet and dirty hands on her arm. “Oh I’m sorry miss,” mumbles the little girl.

Jane yells out “You little monster eh, I do not like dirty little hands touching my precious body, you hear that? Like.. my skin is worth a lot of money.” The little girl starts sobbing at the sound and tone of Jane and calls out for her mom. Irene rushes down to see her little girl crying.

“What’s wrong sweetheart?” Irene asked her daughter.

The little girl points to Jane and said, “She made me cry.”

Jane laughs at the sight of Irene and instantly started bickering, “Miss, your little girl is very dirty and she’s touching my body like it’s worth nothing. Look at my body eh, look at my skin. Models have to look perfect and like one dirty touch from a little girl can ruin this clear skin I have going on. I’m a model did I mention that?”

Irene immediately starts defending her daughter, “Looking at you, it’s hard to believe you’re a model. I mean, if you look at me, I think I have a better chance of modelling successfully and make more money than you. And I don’t like when people talk to my daughter like that, she’s a little girl, don’t make small situations be such a big deal, you little high maintenance model wannabe.”

Jane was shocked at what this woman was saying and quickly became angry and starts yelling out, “What are you? A single mother? You little slut.”

Irene slaps Jane and left Jane with a red mark on her precious face. “Oh my gosh, like.. did you just slap my beautiful face? You really want to get it eh. Let’s take this outside. You think just because I look beautiful and you don’t, don’t try to make me ugly because it won’t ever happen. With this body of mine, this face I have, this soft skin I’m in, I’m unstoppable.”

Jane pushes Irene against the sink and Irene pushes Jane back against the stalls. The little girl was crying at the sight of this fight between her mother and a stranger. “Aww baby, I’m so sorry you had to see this. But this big woman just won’t leave us alone. I guess she’s got nothing to do with her life that she has to come in other people’s lives and give them a bad day because she’s having one. You know what baby? Let’s go back to the mall and eat something okay?”

The little girl nodded and looked up at Jane. At this time, Jane was so pissed off, she couldn’t say the things she wanted to say. Irene pushed her against the stall again and said, “Goodbye fatty, have a nice day.” With that, Irene gave Jane a bad look while she took her daughter’s hand and left the washroom.

Jane was left feeling shock, but she quickly recovered by taking out her makeup bag and starts making herself look pretty. As she was putting making up on, she talks to herself, “Look at you Jane, you’re making big money modelling, you don’t need people like that in your life.” She giggles and says, “I’m the shiznit eh.” After she finishes making herself beautiful, she grabs her purse, takes out a cigarette and walks out of the washroom. Jane kept giggling as she walked out, all along, Jane was high off cheap drugs.

cheesy love songs

"From this moment, as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing, I wouldn't give..
From this moment on.."

Every time I hear the first line, this embarrassingly cheesy grin begins to form on my face. It`s horrible. That I show it with pride.

Love songs are cool. The sappier, the cheesier, the better.
Especially when you begin to fall in love.
You sing them shamelessly.

I remember.. back in the day..
Being exhilarated.

le sigh

She was brand new in the fashion business and wasn’t used to all the attention and the paps. As she walked the red carpet, it seemed like she was walking down a naked road. She was lost and confused with all the flashes from the cameras coming from every direction and questions being yelled out simultaneously. They constantly kept asking “Who are you wearing?” to every model on the carpet. As she was asked the same question, a couple of people yelled out “What she’s wearing is such a fashion faux paux!” She was so overwhelmed by the negative respond from the crowd that she was on the verge of jumping the couch. A sudden burst of tears from a girl behind her quickly relieved her stress. She thought to herself, “Well that sucks, what a wardrobe malfunction that girl had. I’m so glad that wasn’t me.. hmm le sigh.”

alotafire

"Eh yo, did ya see that slam dunk he just did? That's a lot of fireeee."

this so-called life

so tell me, why i ponder upon such things that makes me unhappy in the first place. i'm not like other people. i criticize and dissect every thought that comes to mind, and most of them are derived by my outer surroundings. family, friends, money, school, regrets and lost love can make me become inconsiderate, underappreciative and pessismistic about this so-called life.

i disregard all the success i've gained or the fortunes and talent that i was naturally given at birth. i have to admit, i hate this immaturity greatly.

i'm a happy-go-lucky girl who dreams of reaching the stars.. but i had experiences, disappointments and unforeshadowed failures throughout my life that i never thought of enduring.

this makes me want to go out there and look for an expired soul of innocence to return to me. then i wouldn't need to face the complexities of life that continually awaits me as i get older, and my only obligation would be to finish my homework and be in bed by 9.

but i have to wake up to this reality i've come to know. not only do i have to finish my homework and manage to get some sleep, but i've got to catch the unexpected and surprises life throws at me as i get older..